"I think when tragic things happen, it is on the surface. It’s like the ocean. On the surface a wave comes, and sometimes the wave is very serious and strong. But it comes and goes, comes and goes, and underneath the ocean always remains calm. Tibetans have a saying: “If bad news comes you listen here” (points to right ear) “and let it out here.” (points to left ear)"
Endometriosis: That Moment When…
I love being a photographer. The experiences can be extremely magical sometimes. No matter how hard it can be, endometriosis can’t keep me down. I am a professional photographer. I photograph birth stories…The whole story in its entirety…. from pregnancy photo sessions, to being on call to go to the emergency room and photograph the birth, to photographing and holding a sweet baby. I get to bond with the families through the whole process and document the most intimate moments known to human kind. I cry after holding each baby born. It never fails I cry afterwards haha. Just seeing the joy on the parents faces, hearing the coos and cries, the innocence brought into the world.
If I cannot bring a baby into the world, I will happily document the bringing of someone else’s baby into the world. It’s truly beautiful. (and not as scary as it sounds) Birth stories healed my heartache. I thank God for that and to be a part of these special moment forever.
#end the pain
ENDometriosis: Feeling Good
My fiancé and I desperately needed a weekend away… Far away and alone together… with no stress, no schedule, no work, no worries… just plain and simple happiness.
Work has been overwhelming for both of us. Life had become stressful so what better what to de-stress than say “screw everything and everyone WE ARE TAKING A WEEKEND OFF!!!” Sooo we rented a cabin in the middle of a forest far away and booked reservations for the last day to go out with a bang by 3 hours of zip lining? This weekend was much needed and completely spontaneous. I didn’t let Endo bother me a bit. Not one bit. We cut off everyone and just enjoyed each other. It was… Beyond wonderful. Make the best of the days you got. It’s totally worth it I promise.
"Life is too short to…. wake up in the morning with regrets. So love the people who will treat you right, forget about the ones who don’t, and believe that everything happens for a reason. If you get a chance, take it. If it changes your life, let it. Nobody said it’d be easy, they just promised it would be worth it."
“Don’t grow up,” you’ll whisper teasingly in his ear. “Stay six forever.” “I have to grow up, Mommy,” he’ll chuckle. “I can’t stop this growing!” Knowing this, you will smush your cheek up against his and inhale the faint baby scent that remains in his hair. You will sing to him at bedtime and tell him you love him so so so very much, and as you do these things, you’ll hear a wistful voice in your head reminding you that he’s the last one, the very last one, and there won’t be another.
When you picture the last one in your mind, he’ll always be running ahead of you and you’ll be trying your best to keep up, your heart bursting with mingled joy and despair. With each day that passes, the ribbon of childhood will feel like it’s unwinding too quickly before you and you’ll feel powerless to stop it, and as your youngest child abandons picture books for ones with chapters and leaves home for his first sleepover and demands that the training wheels be removed from his bicycle, you will be struck hard, repeatedly, by the fact that this most amazing time in your life is slipping away from you, bit… by bit… by bit.
The Last One
#the last one
"In this life, people will love you and people will hate you and none of that will have anything to do with YOU."
"The impact of endometriosis is likely to be exacerbated by the absence of an obvious cause and the likelihood of chronic, recurring symptoms… Endometriosis has a significant social and psychological impact on the lives of women across several domains… Furthermore, there is an urgent need to develop and evaluate interventions for supporting women and partners living with this chronic and often debilitating condition."