Endometriosis: That Moment When…
I love being a photographer. The experiences can be extremely magical sometimes. No matter how hard it can be, endometriosis can’t keep me down. I am a professional photographer. I photograph birth stories…The whole story in its entirety…. from pregnancy photo sessions, to being on call to go to the emergency room and photograph the birth, to photographing and holding a sweet baby. I get to bond with the families through the whole process and document the most intimate moments known to human kind. I cry after holding each baby born. It never fails I cry afterwards haha. Just seeing the joy on the parents faces, hearing the coos and cries, the innocence brought into the world.
If I cannot bring a baby into the world, I will happily document the bringing of someone else’s baby into the world. It’s truly beautiful. (and not as scary as it sounds) Birth stories healed my heartache. I thank God for that and to be a part of these special moment forever.
#end the pain
ENDometriosis: Feeling Good
My fiancé and I desperately needed a weekend away… Far away and alone together… with no stress, no schedule, no work, no worries… just plain and simple happiness.
Work has been overwhelming for both of us. Life had become stressful so what better what to de-stress than say “screw everything and everyone WE ARE TAKING A WEEKEND OFF!!!” Sooo we rented a cabin in the middle of a forest far away and booked reservations for the last day to go out with a bang by 3 hours of zip lining? This weekend was much needed and completely spontaneous. I didn’t let Endo bother me a bit. Not one bit. We cut off everyone and just enjoyed each other. It was… Beyond wonderful. Make the best of the days you got. It’s totally worth it I promise.
"Life is too short to…. wake up in the morning with regrets. So love the people who will treat you right, forget about the ones who don’t, and believe that everything happens for a reason. If you get a chance, take it. If it changes your life, let it. Nobody said it’d be easy, they just promised it would be worth it."
“Don’t grow up,” you’ll whisper teasingly in his ear. “Stay six forever.” “I have to grow up, Mommy,” he’ll chuckle. “I can’t stop this growing!” Knowing this, you will smush your cheek up against his and inhale the faint baby scent that remains in his hair. You will sing to him at bedtime and tell him you love him so so so very much, and as you do these things, you’ll hear a wistful voice in your head reminding you that he’s the last one, the very last one, and there won’t be another.
When you picture the last one in your mind, he’ll always be running ahead of you and you’ll be trying your best to keep up, your heart bursting with mingled joy and despair. With each day that passes, the ribbon of childhood will feel like it’s unwinding too quickly before you and you’ll feel powerless to stop it, and as your youngest child abandons picture books for ones with chapters and leaves home for his first sleepover and demands that the training wheels be removed from his bicycle, you will be struck hard, repeatedly, by the fact that this most amazing time in your life is slipping away from you, bit… by bit… by bit.
The Last One
#the last one
"In this life, people will love you and people will hate you and none of that will have anything to do with YOU."
"The impact of endometriosis is likely to be exacerbated by the absence of an obvious cause and the likelihood of chronic, recurring symptoms… Endometriosis has a significant social and psychological impact on the lives of women across several domains… Furthermore, there is an urgent need to develop and evaluate interventions for supporting women and partners living with this chronic and often debilitating condition."
Hi I just found your blog + its been so helpful and uplifting Im going in for an appt in march to have a pelvic exam + ultrasound done before setting up a laparoscopy Im really worried about having endometriosis Ive had a gut feeling for about a year that I have it + my doctor telling me 2 months ago that its a possibility made me even more sure Im so scared of the intensity it could be at + if its blocking my tubes or damaged my ovaries Im only 17 Iwant to have kids one day Im so stressed + mad
Hello, aw so glad this blog has helped you and uplifted you. I was diagnosed at your age so it is all so familiar. This disease is difficult and especially at your age it is hard to even grasp. You are extremely strong and smart for taking the steps in the right direction to get this all figured out. I truly hope you do not have Endo, either way I am here is you need someone to talk to. There are lots of Endo support groups as well. A very loving group who understands what others can’t understand.
Endo suffers have their bodies working against them. You have a right to feel that way… it’s natural. With Endo, Doctors will help you decide best treatments… probably with BC medications since you are so young. Always get second (and third and sometimes fourth) opinions before making decisions. When it comes to children I know it can be such an intense feeling of despair and loss. As of right now my personal route if Steve and I decide to have a child would be having my sister in-law as a surrogate mother. There are many children waiting to be adopted. Pregnancy may still even be an option. There is always hope. There is always a chance. When one door closes another will open. I hope everything works out best in your favor lovely and wishing you pain free days! <3
This is my healthy, nutrient rich, truly tasty Green Smoothie.
Blend together: 1 Banana, 1 cup mango, 1 cup pineapple, 2 handfuls of baby spinach (or alternative is kale), 1 cup blueberries, 1 cup green melon. Add 2 teaspoons of ground ginger.
Depending how thick you want the smoothie you may add the fruit as frozen for thick or refrigerated for thin. You may also add skim or soy milk (or water if you really want to be healthy!)
The Banana helps with immune function, and help the body metabolize protein. They offer healthy carbs which give energy to be more active and feel great. It is also high in the mineral potassium which helps to lower blood pressure. The Mango is the king of fruits and my absolute favorite fruit… it is high in antioxidants, full of vitamins, and boosts the digestive function of the body by burning additional calories ultimately helping with weight loss. The Pineapple must be chosen in moderation due to the high acid content to your mouth and teeth, though it aids in digestion and act as an anti-inflammatory agent. The Baby Spinach should NOT be frozen for it will lose health benefits and being cooked increases the benefits… the glycoglycerolipids from spinach can help protect the lining of the digestive tract from damage — especially damage related to unwanted inflammation. The Kale is rich in chlorophyll, vitamin C K and A, iron, calcium, amino acids, flavonoids, and carotenoids that remove toxins, fight inflammation, and provide the body with important nutrients for rejuvenation and healing. The Blueberries contain a group of antioxidants that are essential for protecting the body from free radical damage that causes buildup of toxins and oxidative stress. The Honeydew (Green) Melon is beneficial because it provides vitamins and minerals in a sweet-tasting low-calorie package. It is high in potassium which is essential to nerve and muscle function and promotes healthy blood pressure levels and a potassium-rich diet is associated with a decreased risk of hypertension. The Ginger is an herb that is used as a spice and also for its therapeutic qualities. It is widely used throughout the world for treating loss of appetite, nausea and vomiting after surgery, nausea resulting from caner and disease treatments, flatulence, upset stomach, and helps kicks sickness.